The Shepherd

Everyone remembers the morning the stranger came to town, speaking of sheep. The debate over whether he should be called a shepherd is a powder keg in the tavern, and the mention of his name is the spark.

He arrived with nothing but a rust-speckled toolbox and stood at the door of the town’s land office. 

Dust shimmered in a single beam of sunlight in the cramped office. The land agent, a man with thinning gray hair, glasses on the tip of his nose, and a smoldering pipe, peered up from his desk.

The man explained he wanted to buy the vacant plot in the hills above the town.

“Depends.”

“Depends on what?”

“What do you intend to do with this land?”

“I’d like to raise sheep.”

“Wolves.”

“No. Sheep.”

The land agent raised an eyebrow. “I ain’t hard of hearin’; I said wolves.” 

He stood and traced exaggerated, dramatic circles around both areas on the map hung behind him, as though the man were dim.

“These woods have wolves,” he said in a slow, staccato rhythm. “Wolves eat sheep. You can’t have sheep there. Have a nice day.”

He sat and returned to his paperwork. The stranger didn’t move.

“Can I buy it anyway?”

“Do you have sheep?”

“I’ll find some.”

“You don’t have a place to live.”

“I’ll build one.”

After the land agent had exhausted all of his questions, he drew up the land deed.

People from the town he came from asked the same questions. He didn’t let them anger him the way they used to. The questions are ghosts, phantoms lurching outward, grasping for him under the guise of protection. 

He worked in the sun, building his modest home and barn while the green grass grew tall and danced in the wind, carrying the sweet scent of wildflowers. The townspeople paused on occasion to watch his progress in the hills, offering reactions he would never know. 

When he walked down the road to town, he was kind to those he met, and they were cordial in return. Conversations were pleasant, and he often shared a laugh with the store owners when buying more materials. 

It wasn’t long before people began to refer to him as “the shepherd,” mocking him for his lack of a herd.

He wondered why no one asked questions anymore. He obsessed over it, walking the winding gravel road with the thick forest reaching out from the west side like jagged claws. The only alternative was to obsess over the watchful eyes of wolves hidden in the dark. So he walked, his eyes on the rolling hills illuminated by the setting sun, the landscape glowing otherworldly as he admired it from the shadow of the woods.

He worked from sunrise to sunset, making countless mistakes along the way. Some were so simple in nature that he’d be forced to stop and scratch his head, baffled at his incompetence. He found it even harder to believe his hands had done the fixing. But he continued, sure that once he finished the fence and sheep filled his pasture, the town would see he was a shepherd. 

That thought became his North Star on his trips to town, gazing in awe at his new home from the shadow of the woods, silent wolves stalking him under their cover. He smiled as he slipped into a daydream: a flock of sheep sweeping across the green hills like a school of fish in open water.

The fence began as wood, crooked planks leveled out with each addition, until it shifted to a stone wall for no apparent reason. Jagged, uneven rocks turned into stones that fit like puzzle pieces. Soon, they formed an enduring rock wall sure to outlast him. And last, in another peculiar change of material, the fence turned to sagging wire—barbed, snarled, and rusted—stretched between leaning posts. The final wires he strung were taut, enclosing the pasture his sheep would call home.

The townspeople walked the hills, passing sections of the fence in various states of repair. They returned to town with silent impressions and whispered theories.

If they had asked, he would have explained that he used different materials to prove to himself that he could. When the planks got level, the work became mundane. As he hammered nails, theories of the most efficient way to build a rock wall filled his mind to the point of obsession. When the wood ran out, he found rocks and began to test his hypotheses.

With the fence complete, the shepherd roamed the hills in search of sheep. Along the way, he met a stray dog in need of work. They shared meals under bright blue skies in the hills and became fast friends. Some trips kept them away for weeks, but the shepherd assembled a modest flock.

As the sun dipped lower and greens gave way to gold, the shepherd allowed a moment to pat himself on the back. He had a pasture, a home, a barn, a fence, a sheepdog, and thirty-five sheep. He was a shepherd; there was no doubt. 

One morning, as the sun slid behind the now-bare forest, he thought of the wolves. Without their green cover, the trees bared their teeth. Winter approached, and he didn’t have time to worry about wolves. His focus was the flock. 

He wanted to train his sheep to return to their sheepfold without having to herd them. 

A cold wind followed him into town, curling beneath heavy grey clouds. It was quiet now. Eyes burned holes in his back, peering out from behind darkened windows. The soft, rhythmic tap of his shepherd’s hook announced his presence.

He walked into the blacksmith’s and came out in less than a minute, a triangle chime in his hand. He made his way back up the hill, hood up and head down, the breeze nipping at his cheeks. 

That evening, when it was time to bring in the sheep, he sent his dog out alone and stood by the fold, chiming the triangle in time. Hoping its pleasant music would teach the sheep to come for food at day’s end or, in more dire moments, stay alive.

The first night, only a couple of sheep came bounding over the hill. The second night, none came. 

Too far out to hear, the shepherd reasoned.

On the third night, after a few minutes of ringing, the entire flock came over the rise.

Pride swelled in the shepherd’s chest, only to drain to his gut when he spotted a wolf, nose inches off the ground, sniffing the fenceline for weakness. The shepherd straightened. The wolf froze, locking eyes with him, beginning an arrogant, deliberate trot, never looking away. 

His dog snarled from the other side of the fence as the sheep began to scatter in fear. The shepherd wasn’t ready for this fight. 

He dashed to his barn and grabbed an old dinner bell. Back outside, he swung it over his head in furious arcs, a guttural cry ripping from his throat. The wolf bolted until the darkness of the woods consumed it. His dog’s barks echoed across the pasture into the night.

That night, he collapsed onto his straw bed. 

Were the sheep coming to the chime or fleeing from the wolf? 

The wolf came to the triangle and ran from the bell. 

The shepherd made a decision: 

He would train the sheep with the bell.

He would teach the wolves to fear it.

Whether or not a bell could serve this dual purpose was a question he intended to answer.

The gray buildings bloomed into gold in the rising sun as he walked into town. Soon after, he came back up the road, a bundle of lumber under his arms. White plumes of breath drifted behind him in the cold, sunlit air. 

A few early risers in the town caught a glimpse as he passed by with wood. By mid-morning, everyone had made up their mind: the shepherd was fixing his fence.

As the shadows grew long that afternoon, the woman who lived in the cabin in the woods rounded the bend to the shepherd’s pasture. Though they were each other’s closest neighbors, they had never spoken. 

She halted when she saw him not tending to his flock. Not repairing his fence.

He was digging.

Mounds of dirt surrounded the shepherd, his back hunched as he worked to carve a hole into the earth.

He stood and stretched when he caught her in his periphery. He wiped his brow with the back of his hand, smearing dirt across his forehead. He lifted a hand to block the orange sun as it teetered on the edge of the forest, hungry for light. 

Her face came into focus, half-lit and watchful, and his dust-caked face broke into a warm, easy grin. He waved. 

The woman raised her hand in return and flashed a smile before walking down the hill.

His dog barked. The shepherd turned to the sheepfold and fetched the dinner bell. 

The woman flinched when the violent clang echoed through the hills. She paused, her heartbeat thumping in her ears, expecting the soft chime of a triangle. Another sharp ring, as she heard a rustle in the woods behind her, followed by a guttural, canine whine.

Gravel crackled underfoot as she quickened her pace toward town. 

The few sheep that came to the triangle scattered over the crest of the hill at the clanging. The shepherd expected this. He rang it again.

A wolf trotted, cocksure, along the fence as it had the day prior. He slung the bell in wild arcs over his head, and once again, the wolf darted for the woods.

The shepherd smiled as the trees swallowed it, and the flock came bounding in from the pasture. His dog barked, short and sharp, before skittering into view with its tail between its legs. The dog veered left as a lone wolf burst from a weak spot in the fence, in pursuit of the flock.

He rang harder. He screamed till his throat burned. 

It was no use.

Tears cut bright trails through the dirt on his cheeks as the wolf took down one of his sheep in the pasture. The wolf licked the blood from its paws, belly full, and stared at him. He stared back, unmoving, until the wolf spun and trotted off into the woods. 

The shepherd sat in the grass for a long time, gnashing his teeth.

When word spread about what the woman witnessed, the townspeople turned their eyes to the pasture. No one could make sense of it. Why wasn’t he fixing the fence? 

He marched down the road into town, snarling breath hissing from his nose. His eyes scanned the tree line. He seethed. 

He stomped to the blacksmith’s door and knocked. A moment later, it creaked open a sliver, revealing his wary face.

“Closed.” The blacksmith looked him up and down, covered in filth. 

“I need a bigger bell.”

“Don’t have one. Good night.”

The shepherd caught the closing door with his foot and peered over the blacksmith’s shoulder.

“I want that bell.”

The bell was substantial. Heavy. Its bronze surface black with soot in places and tarnished in others. A hairline crack serpentined across one side. 

“That hung in a chapel that burned down years ago. What use do you have for a bell like that, holding mass for your sheep?” The blacksmith chuckled at his joke and lit his pipe. 

“Is it for sale?”

“Well,” the blacksmith took a long draw from his pipe, his dark eyes narrowed, darting between the bell and the shepherd. Two white streams of smoke fell from his nostrils, “I suppose so. It’ll need some repair if you want it to ring, and I’ll have to arrange delivery.” He rubbed his chin with his thumb and forefinger. “I could have it to you in one month.”

“One month.” He stared at the blacksmith for a beat and handed him a sack. “Deal.”

“Yes, sir.” The blacksmith peeked into the sack and nodded as a quick snarl escaped his lips as though catching the scent of an easy meal on the wind. “One month.”

“Thank you.” The shepherd turned on his heel and made his way out of town, lantern clanging at his side.

The blacksmith stood in his doorway, watching him. 

The general store owner stepped outside, glanced from the shepherd to the blacksmith, and raised a puzzled brow.

The blacksmith shrugged and closed the door.

The townspeople peeked through their curtains, watching the orange glow of this lantern fade into the dark.

He was already working when the sun rose over his pasture, beginning a daily routine the townspeople would come to know well.

Each morning, he rose before dawn and worked in the cold, damp barn by the light of his lantern. The scent of hay and earth hung in the air as he measured lengths of the rope, sorted heavy chains, and cut and smoothed wood. By week’s end, both thumbnails were purple, his hands stiff and blistered, riddled with splinters.

Yet, every morning, he worked as the sun rose, listening to his dog’s slow, steady breathing as it curled up in the entryway.

At noon, the shepherd made a daily pilgrimage into town while the sheep grazed.

That first week, the townspeople gaped at his physical deterioration. They gawked at his hands, aging a decade with each passing day. The shepherd always smiled, nodded, and said hello.

And once he passed, they bustled in his wake, whispering theories about what in the hell he was doing up there. 

He spent his afternoons digging and moving earth, the sun hot on his shoulders. His fingernails grew jagged, caked with dirt like long-buried arrowheads worn down by time. 

He thought of the townspeople as he worked. He laughed as he wondered what they must feel, what they say about his existence.

The dog tilted his head, confused, and let out a whine.

The man let out a belly laugh. “Yep,” he said, “that sums it up.”

He shook his head and went back to work. He kept at it until the black spiderwebs of forest shadow crept across his pasture in the dying light.

By the third night, the townspeople were expecting the bell. They moved to their chosen vantage points, watching the carnage in disbelief.

The wolves emerged from the woods, tongues smacking. One by one, they broke off, circling the fence at quiet, measured intervals. The bell rang and rang. It did not stop them.

As the wolves took their posts, the sheep began to bleat and scatter. The shepherd’s dog, unshaken and vigilant, worked the flock the best he could while the shepherd shook the bell with desperate force.

The wolves breached the fence all at once. They fanned out and fell into stride behind the herd, closing the gap in a silent, confident advance. 

Night after night, the shepherd’s flock shrank. 

He swung the bell over his head as he locked the surviving sheep into the fold, watching the wolves feast in his pasture. They ate until nothing but crimson-stained wool surrounded them, and the sky turned black as they made their retreat into the woods. He would wait for the sole, haunting howl that would echo from its depths. His returned scream of agonized rage marked the end of the night’s terror.

This was the pattern. 

Every day. 

All month.

The townspeople grew bolder. 

They altered their walking routes, timing them for when the shepherd was away from the sheepfold, desperate to know what mystery he was digging up.

What could be more important than fixing his fence? Than saving his sheep?

No one could agree on a theory.

The blacksmith hired the usual team he called on when something heavy needed moving, and they carted the bell up the road to the shepherd’s barn.

The townspeople followed.

The team hung the bell in short order. By midday, a tarnished bronze bell gleamed from the barn’s eaves, catching the high afternoon sun. 

The shepherd stood below it, marveling at the new bell, smiling as the moving team returned to town. He turned to the townspeople gathered along his fence and pointed to the bell. 

“Not bad!”

The townspeople stood expressionless, eyes on him.

The shepherd shrugged, shuffled to the front of his sheepfold, and studied the smooth ground where he had once turned the earth. He turned in a slow circle, eyeing the ground, stopping a few times to smooth some dirt with his toe.

Satisfied, he exhaled, shuffled back to the barn, leaned into its shade, and slid down against the wall.

He took in the bell one last time, closed his eyes, and slept.

The townspeople remained, like statues lining the fence, watching the shepherd sleep as the icy shadows of the forest reached to touch their backs. 

His dog nudged him with a low whine, and yelped. The shepherd’s eyes snapped open. He shook the sleep off and sprang to his feet.

The crowd began to stir in anticipation of the first ring of the bell. 

The shepherd disappeared into the barn and returned with the dinner bell in hand. The crowd murmured.

His chest expanded as he drew in a long breath through his nose.

He rang the bell hard and fast, its sound cutting across the hills. 

No one near the barn could see the wolves coming, but they felt them.

The faint bleating of the sheep rose from the pasture. The shepherd’s dog barked sharp commands, herding the few sheep that remained.

The townspeople tightened their grips on the fence before them, stone, wire, or wood, white-knuckled.

The smaller herd meant the wolves had an extended chase. The sheep were nearing the sheepfold as the pack strode behind, eager for their meal, calm and confident.

The shepherd stood firm, ringing the bell.

As the dog culled the sheep into the sheepfold, the townspeople let out a collective sigh, the first night in weeks without death.

But the shepherd did not shut the gate.

He kept ringing the bell, backing away toward the barn as the wolves advanced, stalking. Their bodies sank, shoulder blades rising with each step, eyes locked on the sheep.

The shepherd reached the barn door. He rang the bell once more, mouthing something to himself.

He vanished into the barn and hurled his scant weight into the bell pull. 

The dinner bell gave a hollow clang as it hit the dirt. 

For a moment, the world stood still.

The enormous bell rang out, a thunderous gong that sent wolves flinching and townspeople clapping hands to ears.

As the bell swung back, the taut line jerked a lever upward. A chain shot through a groove in the earth, linking the barn to the sheepfold. 

Wooden spears burst from the earth, their tips dripping with wet, tar-like mud, circling the pack of wolves as the bell let out an echoing chime.

One wolf darted for the woods and yelped as a sharpened tip tore into its belly. The pack froze a moment before it erupted in snarls and howls. 

The shepherd stood in the doorway of the barn, his silhouette bathed in sunlight. Stone-faced, his chest rose and fell in a smooth rhythm. His dog sat at his side, looking up to him.

He scanned the wolves, caged but alive, for a moment before he turned to the silent crowd.

His expression softened. 

He smiled the same smile he always had. He raised a hand and waved as if it were a typical afternoon. As if this were just another day. Sweat shimmered on his brow in the light that now seemed cast only for him.

The townspeople gave no reaction. There was no applause. No cheers, only silence.

At the back of the crowd, he spotted a hand held above their heads in greeting.

The shepherd squinted into the beams of forest-filtered sunlight, and there she stood—

The woman, his neighbor.

The corners of his mouth pulled closer to his ears in a warm smile.

He watched them go, eyes on her until she disappeared down the hill. 

He looked down at his dog, whose body gave an expectant wiggle before the shepherd scratched him behind the ears.

He gazed out over his pasture, golden in the setting sun. He exhaled.

“Let’s get to work on that fence.”

Welcome to Pinehaven

“We are going to get caught. Let’s just go back to the party, Kev,” Carmen said as she glanced behind her at affluent Lakeview Boulevard, shrowded by the dark fall night. 

The wind whipped off Lake Serenity through the towering pines, carrying the fresh scent of pine needles and a chill that forced her to pull the cape of her Little Red Riding Hood costume tighter around her shoulders.

“They’re never home,” came Kevin’s voice from the bushes in front of the house. “And usually the front door is unlocked, but luckily I know where they hide their… got it!”

Kevin’s head – topped with the wild hair and pointy ears of his Teen Wolf Costume – popped up out of the bushes; he was holding a rock the size of a baseball.

Carmen felt her heart leap a little in her chest as he did. She couldn’t see his face but could hear the smile she had been smitten with since the first day of sixth grade when Kevin’s family moved to their little town.

She wasn’t naive. Growing up in the Timber Mill Quarter, she understood her odds of a lifetime with a boy—from the affluent Lakeside District—wouldn’t last forever.

They were two months into their senior year of high school, and neither had dared to talk about what would happen when the year ended. They always spoke to each other in forever terms. They talked about where they would live and what their house would look like, and even argued about what their first baby’s name would be just this past summer.

“See,” Carmen’s best friend Jenna said, spinning her laptop screen to face Carmen, “Two percent! Two percent of marriages are to high school sweethearts. So you need to stop freaking out and start having fun. You two aren’t going to get married.”

Carmen understood the statistics, but she resolved to enjoy the love she had as much as she could while she had it.

“Aaand, we’re in,” Kevin said as a gust of wind sent leaves tumbling across the driveway. “I can’t believe people still use these ‘hide-a-key’ things.”

Carmen hesitated.

“I—I still don’t think this is a good idea,” she said, looking over her shoulder at the dark, empty street. “What if they come home?”

“I told you, they FaceTimed my mom this morning to make sure everything was okay with the house. Mrs. Connor was on the beach telling my mom about the bottomless mimosas. Even if they got on a plane right after hanging up, there is no way they could make it home from Hawaii until tomorrow morning. We have the house to ourselves.”

Kevin held out his hand, gesturing for Carmen to enter the house.

As she stepped inside, she saw something flash in her peripheral vision and screamed.

Kevin slammed the door, put his hand over her mouth, and pressed her against the wall in the foyer.

“Shhh,” he said, smiling. “Do you want to get us in trouble? When I said, ‘we have the house to ourselves,’ I was including Chase.”

Carmen looked down to see Chase, the Connors’ adorable orange and white tabby cat, head-bunting Kevin’s legs in search of attention.

Carmen exhaled in relief. “Sorry, he scared me.”

“Thanks for clearing that up.”

“Shut up. It’s dark, it’s Halloween, and my boyfriend convinced me to break into someone’s house,” Carmen said, narrowing her eyes at him.

“You’re right, I’m sorry,” Kevin said as he wrapped her in his arms and kissed her forehead. “Do you think our house will be this big?”

As he pulled away, Carmen began to take in the house’s interior. The house was spotless and smelled of lemon cleaner. It looked like one of those model houses they put up in a new development. The staples were there: couches, a large dining room table with a place setting, TVs, and a few generic pieces of artwork hung from the walls. It was the kind of place that highlighted the difference between a house and a home.

“I don’t know, darling,” Carmen began, attempting to sound high-falutin. “It’s big, of course, but you know I am partial to marble flooring. And what is it with these low ceilings? It feels rather tight here.”

“Yes, yes, you’re right, my love,” Kevin said, playing along. “I shall find a new realtor at once. Please forgive me.”

They laughed as their lips pressed together.

Carmen pushed him back to arm’s length and said, “So, what’s your plan, mister? You’ve got me alone in this house, and I am getting bored.”

“Hold that thought. I’ll be right back,” he said, winking at her before disappearing into the kitchen.

Carmen walked to the bookshelf on the other side of the living room, adorned with framed pictures, knick-knacks, and, of course, books.

Mr. and Mrs. Connor didn’t have any children, so all of the picture frames were filled with shots of them on vacation. While the backdrop varied from tropical, sugar-sand beaches to historic landmarks, the couple could have been photoshopped into every one of the pictures.

They stood on the same side in every picture and had the bright smiles of newlyweds in every image.

Carmen picked up a picture of the couple in front of the Tower Bridge in London. She allowed her imagination to replace their faces with hers and Kevin’s. She tried to imagine taking the picture. She imagined showing the picture to her friends at a dinner party after they returned from another one of their European vacations. She fell head-first into the fantasy.

She froze when she saw the silhouette of someone standing behind her in the reflection of the glass in the picture frame.

“Kevin? What are you doing?”

No response.

Too afraid to move, she tried again. “Kevin, if you’re trying to scare m—”

“What are you doing here?” a voice whispered.

Carmen screamed as she jumped, dropping the picture frame. Glass shattered on the hardwood floor as she spun around to see Kevin standing behind her, holding two hard seltzers.

“Don’t do that!”

“It’s too easy,” he laughed, holding out the two cans. “Watermelon or black cherry?”

“Watermelon,” Carmen said, snatching it from his hand. “What do we do about the picture frame?”

“Let’s figure that out later,” Kevin said, sitting on the couch and patting the cushion beside him.

Carmen took a long drink and winced as the sharp carbonated malt liquor slid down her throat. She set the can on the bookshelf before jumping on top of Kevin and kissing him. He gently slid his hand up her back, to the back of her neck, then to her cheek.

Carmen felt goosebumps all over her body as he brushed her straight, brown hair behind her ear.

He pulled away, looking her in the eye, saying, “I really do love you.”

She studied his face for a moment and knew he meant it. She felt it, too. She didn’t know whether it was lust or love in such moments. All she knew was that it felt good. It felt as though she couldn’t get close enough to him. She pressed every part of herself into him as they lay on the couch.

They heard a thump from the ceiling above them.

Carmen lifted her face away from Kevin’s and looked to the stairs. “What was that?”

“Chase, remember? Actually, the Connors will think he’s the one who broke the picture,” he said, attempting not to lose his opportunity to make it to second base.

“That sounded bigger than a cat.”

“All right,” Kevin sighed. “Let’s go check it out.”

They turned on the lights leading upstairs. Kevin made his way up with Carmen hot on his heels, looking over her shoulder as he went up.

Kevin strutted from room to room, turning on lights and checking in closets and under beds. When he turned on the light to the Connors’ bedroom, Chase ran out of the door to Carmen’s feet.

“See,” Kevin said, unable to hide the frustration in his voice. “What did I tell you?”

Carmen bent down and picked up Chase, who purred as she scratched behind his ears.

“I know, I know, it’s because it’s Halloween.”

“It is? Thank God, I was worried everyone was going to figure out my secret tonight,” he said, looking down at his Teen Wolf costume.

“Well, your secret is safe with me,” Carmen said with a sly grin.

“Good, because then I wouldn’t have to eat you,” he said, walking toward her down the hall.

“My, what sharp teeth you have,” she said.

“The better to eat you with,” Kevin said, snarling into her neck.

They were making their way down the stairs, laughing, when they heard three hard pounds on the door.

They stood halfway down the stairs, staring at each other. Kevin brought a finger to his lips, telling Carmen to be quiet.

He padded to the front door. All Carmen could hear was her heartbeat in her ears. Kevin reached for the doorknob when they heard a knock on the window in the living room.

Carmen saw the tension release from Kevin’s shoulders. He turned and said, “It has to be Andy. I told him we were coming here, and he’s trying to freak us out. I’ll take care of him.”

He yanked the door open and looked on the front porch momentarily. He turned around with a smile and ran across the living room to the kitchen.

“I saw him run around back. I am going to get him for this one; come on.”

Carmen followed him to the kitchen, where he went to the back patio door and opened it.

“I know you’re out there, you idiot,” he said in a hushed voice. “You better not wake the neighbors and get us caught.”

He shut the door and walked to Carmen. “Sorry, babe. I should have known he’d pull some stuff like this. Let’s get a drink.”

Kevin walked across the living room, closed the front door, and went down to the basement to get drinks.

“I’m going to the bathroom,” Carmen said. “We are leaving if anything else even remotely creepy happens.”

Carmen entered the main floor powder room and shut the door when her phone buzzed. She received a text from her best friend, Jenna.

Jenna: Are you coming or not?

Carmen: Don’t think so. Is it fun?

Jenna: It would be better if you were here! But I understand you need to spend quality time with the love of your life. You should watch this tho.

A video popped up in the messaging app, and Carmen hit play.

She immediately turned the volume down as the sound of high school seniors laughing and yelling nearly blew out her eardrums. She saw familiar faces illuminated with the orange glow of a bonfire. Her friend Kim came into the shot, tripped over a cooler, and fell into a heap of laughter when she said something that sent a shiver down Carmen’s spine.

“Andy has a flat tire,” Kim said, gasping through laughter. “And he doesn’t know how to change a tire.”

She looked in the mirror, and it occurred to her that she had never seen what she looked like when terrified. 

“Kevin,” she said, opening the bathroom door, “Are you sure it was Andy? I just got a text from Jenna and…”

She stopped as she looked at Kevin. His blue eyes still dazzled her, like they did when he walked into the classroom on the first day of sixth grade, even next to the pool of blood.

Blood. So much blood.

Kevin lay on the floor, eyes open, as an impossible amount of blood darkened the floor around him. Carmen stared as the pool of blood grew on the floor, and then a shadow emerged, making the blood look like a pool of ink.

Carmen looked to the kitchen doorway to see someone standing motionless. The light from the kitchen behind the person made it impossible to make out any features.

She shook her head in an attempt to clear her vision. They stood there still, motionless, over Kevin’s lifeless body. It looked like they were wearing a hood, or was it a mask?

She tried to scream, but there was no air in her lungs.

Wake up, she thought, you have to get out of here. Run to the front door now. Run. RUN!

She looked in the direction of the front door, still frozen with fear, then looked back at the attacker, who slowly shook their head.

Now or never.

She made a break for the front door, grabbed the doorknob, and pulled.

The door was locked. She grabbed the deadbolt to unlock the door, and as she did, a hand grabbed the back of her hair and slammed her face into the door.

Carmen heard the crunch of her nose breaking before she plunged into darkness.

A LETTER TO THE READER

Dear Reader,

While I find it impolite not to introduce myself properly, I cannot do so now. I do hope you will forgive me for this, as I know by the time this letter ends you will desperately want to know my name. 

Your narrator decided to spair you the details of what I did to Carmen and Kevin. If I were telling you this story, I would not spare you from these details. 

No. I respect you too much to treat you like a child who is too innocent to hear such things.

I was nervous tonight. I’ve never done this before, so you’ll have to pardon me the night felt a bit trite. I was doing my best to recreate a mosaic of all the horror movies I have seen. I watched those two kids sneaking into a house that didn’t belong to them on Halloween night. I would have liked to be more prolific, more origiinal but alas here we are.

It’s true what they say though, there are no failures in life, only lessons to be learned. And I learned a lot.

I wanted to take more time with them. I wanted to have more of a conversation. Get to know them, well, get to know them a little better. I got too… let’s say excited. 

I saw the way they looked at each other on that couch and I have to say, I believe Kevin really loves, err, loved Carmen. She loved him, she really loved him. She loved him so much more than anything in her life.

She told me.

Do you want someone to tell you the truth? 

Put a knife to their throat.

If I wouldn’t have been pressed for time, I would have gotten her full, unabridged, honest life story. She begged to tell me anything to save her life. I got the information I needed but eventually it gets to be a bit annoying. I love my mom, I want to live, Please, I’ll do anything – blah, blah, blah. 

I didn’t intend on writing you this letter. My plan was to disappear like a ghost or a boogieman for you to think about the next time you’re home alone and here a noise in another part of your house. I wanted you to wonder if the next knock on your door was coming from me or someone who cared about your life. 

We never know when we are going to find out pashion though, do ew? 

I have a taste for this now and I want to see if anyone can catch me or if my thirst for blood is insatiable enough to keep me hidden in plain sight while I wait for my next opportunity. And the next. And the next. 

I wonder if you will piece it together first or if someone in this town will beat you to the punch. I am not so disillusioned to believe I will not get caught, rather that is the point. 

The real question is how many innocent people, i.e. Kevin and Carmen, will wind up having there final conversation with me? What secrets will they tell? How much will they beg?

I hope to meet you in person someday. I now know it will be far more fun to talk to you then it is to watch you through your window.

Happy Halloween.

Letting Go

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He feels the warm morning sun on his face through the blinds in his bedroom, followed by her warmth as she presses against his back, draping her arm over his shoulder. He takes a deep breath and catches a faint scent of her perfume from yesterday. 

“I think today is the day,” she whispers, gently into his year. 

With that, his eyes open, and he is awake. He rolls over to see the bright, smiling face of his wife, Catherine, framed by her long blonde hair. He is always caught off guard by how the smallest moments remind him how lucky he is to have her in his life, convinced his heart will explode out of his chest. 

I can’t wait to tell my Dad; he is going to be thrilled, Daniel thought.

“Have you felt any contractions?” He said, trying to disguise the concern in his voice. 

“I think I felt one a little while ago. It was faint, but something tells me, today is the day,” she said with a smile, then concern flashed across her face, “Regardless, I think you need to do it today.”

“I know,” he said, rolling to his back and wiping the sleep out of his eyes. 

“Hey, it’s going to be okay. You’ve been preparing, and just think, once it’s over you’ll get to meet your daug…” Catherine said, cutting herself off when she realized what she had started to say.

“Wait. Daughter? We’re going to have a baby girl?”

“Don’t be mad. When I went in for my last check, the nurse accidentally told me and…”

“Mad? Mad?! How could I be mad? We are going to have a baby girl, a little you. I have never been more excited in my entire life.” 

He gave Catherine a kiss, got out of bed, and made his way to the shower. He needed to get in touch with his Dad; the sooner, the better. 

Sharing big news with his Dad is one of his favorite things to do in life. He had a knack for providing a reaction that matched the moment’s gravity. Never underwhelmed, never too much enthusiasm, always just right. 

He smiled as he rinsed the shampoo from his hair, recalling the day he got his first hole-in-one. On a late August evening, he got off the golf course just before sunset. He ran to his car to call his Dad, ignoring the yells from his friends reminding him he had to pay for drinks inside the clubhouse.

“Hey buddy, what’s up? Your Mom and I are out for dinner in one of those restaurants that consider it rude to have a conversation above a murmur,” he whispered. 

“Oh, uh, sorry, maybe we can just talk tomorrow,” he said, hoping the disappointment wasn’t evident on his face.

“Hmmm, something tells me I want to hear this news right now.”

“Are you sure? I don’t want to interrupt.”

His Dad stared at the phone with a knowing look. 

“Alright, alright. Well, I just got off the course, and I got a hole-in-one on fifteen,” Daniel said, trying to keep his voice at a respectful volume. He realized his Dad hadn’t moved as he broke the news and said, “Dad, are you there?”

Then he saw the corners of his Dad’s mouth start to curl into a smile threatening to touch his ears as he said, “Gotcha.”

Then he stood up, knocking his chair over backward. Then, in the middle of the quiet and crowded restaurant, he yelled, “Woooo! Attention everyone: my son just got his first hole-in-one, and the next round is on me. Let’s go!”

The once-silent restaurant erupted into cheers as Daniel heard his Mom attempting to tell the other customers it was a joke, but it was too late. That would go down as the day Daniel hit a hole-in-one, and his Dad ran up a two thousand dollar bar tab. 

He dressed, made himself a cup of coffee, and sighed dramatically. 

“Are you sure you don’t want me to call your Dad with you, sweetheart?” His wife said. 

“Yeah. I need to do this on my own. Your focus should be on your contractions, and if anything changes…”

“Go straight to the hospital, and don’t interrupt you.”

“Very funny. I mean it. If anything changes, I want you to come get me. You and our baby, our Daughter, are all that matter today.” 

“Yes, sir,” she said with a salute.

She watched him walk into their home office and shut the door. She immediately grabbed her phone and made a call. 

“Hey, it’s me… Yes, they started about an hour ago… About 20 minutes apart… No, no, not too painful yet… Listen, he just went in to make the phone call, and I think it would go a long way if you were here when he finished… Yes, a theatrical sigh… Okay, great, see you soon,” she said, hanging up the phone. 

She stared at the closed door, hoping it would turn out better than expected.

He sits in his office, staring at the cursor hovering over the New FaceTime button, mentally preparing himself.

“You can do this,” he said to himself, finally clicking the button. 

As usual, the call connected after two and a half rings, and his Dad’s face appeared on his screen.

“Hey buddy, how’s your day going?” His Dad said.

“Good, Dad. Really good, actually.”

“That’s what I like to hear. What is making my son’s day so great this morning?”

“Catherine started having contractions about an hour ago. They are still pretty far apart, but it seems like today will be the day I meet my Daughter.”

“Daughter? Daughter? I thought we would have to wait until the baby was born to find out.” 

“Me too, Dad,” he said with a smile, “a nurse accidentally let it slip at one of Catherine’s appointments a few weeks ago. She told me this morning.”

“You know, I wanted you to be a girl. I was so sure you were a girl. I bought all sorts of pink clothes and toys and hid them from your mother. It wasn’t until you were a few weeks old that I broke the news to your Mom. The look on her face when I told her I didn’t save the receipts was priceless. Of course, I wouldn’t change a thing now. Being your Dad has been the absolute best part of my life. I am so proud of you, buddy. You’re going to be an amazing father.”

“I learned from the best,” he said, fighting back tears.

“Who? Me? Oh, c’mon, keep going,” his Dad said, beckoning his son to keep the stream of compliments flowing.

“I love you, Dad.”

“I love you too, buddy. What’s wrong? You seem far too sad on such a special day.”

“I just, well, I’ve got to…”

“You’re nervous, aren’t you? It’s okay. I remember the day you were born. I was so sure you were a girl…”

The same story. This had become a more common occurrence and one of the primary reasons that today would be the last day he spoke to his Dad. He read his notes about how to do this properly as his Dad continued his story. 

Be direct. Don’t worry about feelings. Irrational lashing out is to be expected.

“… anyway,” his Dad continued, “I know you will be an amazing father. And I am going to be an even better Grandfather. I cannot wait to meet my Grandaughter.”

“That’s the thing, Dad. I have to tell you something.”

“Uh-oh, this doesn’t sound good.”

“You’re not going to meet her,” he said, bracing himself for the reaction.

There was a long pause as his Dad’s face cycled through emotion from devastation to fury. It looked as though all of his facial muscles were working independently of one another, trying to find the rhythm.

“I. Don’t. Understand.”

“Here’s the thing, Dad, you actually…”

“I don’t understand,” his Dad interrupted, his voice filled with anger and hurt, “how my own son. The child I raised… No, the man I raised has the balls to tell me I can’t see my own Grandaughter. Do you know what this is going to do to your mother? Did you ever stop to consider…”

“Dad, Mom is going to be fine. She will come to the hospital first thing after the baby is born.”

“So,” his Dad began, chin quivering, “I don’t get… What did I do?”

“Dad…”

“No,” his Dad interrupted through a sob, “Just tell me what I did. Tell me what I did wrong, and I will fix it. I will do whatever it takes. Please, I am begging you, buddy, don’t do this to me.” 

“Dad, I can’t… there isn’t anything,” he tried to get the words out, but the dam had burst, and tears began to stream down his cheeks. 

“Hey, buddy, don’t cry. Whatever it is, we will fix it. I’ve got your back. I’m always here for you, no matter what. You know that, right?”

“Of course. I ju- I think I hear Catherine calling for me; I’ll be right back. Just a sec.”

He walked out of the office and right out the front door. When he was on the front step, he took out his phone and dialed.

“AI Love You, how may I assist you today?” A friendly woman answered.

“Hi, this is Daniel Wilson. Will you connect me to Devon Wright, please?” 

“Just a moment,” the woman responded, placing the call on hold.

At AI Love You, we believe in love that lasts forever. Losing a loved one can take a toll on your health and well-being, but it doesn’t have to. Stay on the line, and a representative will help you keep that special someone in your life for…

Hi, this is Devon. How may I assist you today?”

“Hi, Devon, this is Daniel Wilson. I am ready to terminate my membership.”

“Hi, Mr. Wilson, I’m so sorry to hear that. Are you sure there is nothing we can do to keep your bus..”

“Save it. Like I said the last time we spoke, I am done. You took advantage of me when I was most vulnerable, and I have been stuck in this purgatory, pretending a computer program is my Dad for over a year now. I am having a baby, and I must move on with my life,” he said, trying to avoid yelling into his phone, “and now, your fancy program is making me despise my Father.”

“My apologies, Mr. Wilson, but as I explained the last time we spoke, our AI rendering of your Father has limitations. Since you never disowned him in real life, there is no data to predict how he would have reacted,” Devon explained, attempting to sound sympathetic but missing the mark.

“For the last time, I am not disowning my Father. That thing is not my Dad. I want to terminate my membership.” 

“I understand. Just bear with me one moment. My system is a little slow today… must be a Monday,” Devon said, keyboard keys clicking in the background, “aaand, just have to make sure… yep, there we go. Alright, Mr. Wilson, when you return to the call, you will now see the END MY RELATIONSHIP button. As a reminder, once you have ended the re…”

“Stop saying I am ending the relationship. Cancer killed my Dad sixteen months ago, so I am not ending the relationship with my Dad. I am terminating my membership with your company.”

“Yes. My apologies. Please remember that once your membership has been terminated, all your supplied data will be permanently deleted. There is no recovery process.”

“I understand,” Daniel said. 

“Excellent. Your account is ready to be terminated. I want to thank you for calling AI Love You. If you have the time, I would appreciate it if you would stay on the line to complete a brief surv…”

Daniel ended the call. It took every ounce of self-control not to throw his phone into the street. He took a deep breath and went back inside. 

Catherine was standing in the doorway to the kitchen, looking concerned.

“Hey,” he said, moving toward her with his arms open for a hug, “I’m okay. We knew this was going to be complicated. I just need a couple more minutes, then we can focus on finally meeting our baby girl.”

He gave her a kiss and walked back into the office. His Dad’s face remained on his computer screen, blinking every three seconds, expressionless. 

“Hey, buddy,” his Dad said happily when Daniel walked into view, “What took you so long?”

“Look, Dad,” Daniel said, “I need you just to listen now, no talking, okay?”

“You got it, buddy. Whoops, this doesn’t count. My lips are zipped.”

“I love you so much. I miss you every day. I hate that my Daughter will never get to meet you and have fun with you the way we did when I was little. When you died, I thought my world ended too. The world turned into this drab place of existence for me, and I was desperate to get you back. Signing up for this thing was a mistake. I see that now. I need to focus all of my attention on Catherine and our Daughter. I can’t keep talking to a ghost in my office. I want to be the Dad to her that you were to me, and losing you taught me not to waste a moment doing anything else other than watching her grow into the wonderful woman she is sure to be,” the cursor was hovering over the END MY RELATIONSHIP button, “I love you so much, Dad.”

“Not as much as I love you, buddy.”

Daniel clicked his mouse, and the call ended. A survey was on the computer screen where his Dad’s face was just moments ago.

On a scale from 1-10, how likely would you be to refer a friend to AI Love You based on your call today?

He clicked ‘1’ and put the monitor to sleep. Rubbing his eyes, he stood up from his desk, ready to meet his Daughter.

He opened the door to see his Mom waiting for him. 

“Mom? How did you…”

“Catherine called. She thought it would be a good idea if I came over, “she said, “Don’t worry, I’m not coming to the hospital until the baby is born, but I wanted to make sure you were okay.”

With that, he buried his face into his Mom’s shoulder and finally cried the way he should have sixteen months ago. She pulled him in tight, shushing in his ear and making him feel safe the way only a Mother can. Once he settled down, she pulled away.

“I brought you something,” she said, reaching into her purse and pulling out a flash drive. 

“What’s this?” Daniel said, grabbing the flash drive out of her hand.

“As soon as your Father got his diagnosis, he started making videos for you. We would sit in the living room reading or talking, and a thought would hit him. He would drop everything, go to the office, and record a video for you,” his Mom said, a single tear falling down her cheek, “he was so worried you would be sad, so whenever he thought of anything, stories, advice, or even just a joke, he wanted to record it so he could be there for you in case you needed him.”

After a moment to compose herself, she continued.

“I planned to give it to you the day you told me about AI Love You. It was probably a mistake, but I thought it better to let you grieve in your own way. I’m sorry. I didn’t want to get in the way. There are hundreds of videos on there, but there is one that he would want you to watch today,” his Mom said with a knowing smile. They called for Catherine to join them in the office. 

Daniel sat in front of the computer and plugged the flash drive in. He opened the folder when it appeared on his screen, and it expanded to dozens of sub-folders for different occasions. “Golf Tips” and “Don’t Do This” were some of the folder names. His Mom pointed at the folder that said: “How to Dad.” He opened the folder to over a hundred videos for parenting milestones and challenges. 

“This is the one,” his Mom said, pointing to the first video title, ‘If it’s a Girl.’

He double-clicked the video, and the Quicktime application opened. There was his Dad, his real Dad, sitting in his old office chair with a lit cigar in his mouth.

“Hey, buddy! Sho I her itsh a girl,” he said, the cigar making it hard for him to annunciate. He took it out and placed it in an ashtray as he clicked his tongue, trying to rid his mouth of the taste, “ugh, I’ll never understand why people like these things.”

Daniel looked at his Mom as they both began to laugh. 

“Congratulations, buddy. Did you know that I wanted you to be a girl? I was so sure…”

The Intruder

A flush of adrenaline rolls to my legs and they start to tingle. My heart rate speeds up so that I can no longer feel individual beats coming from my chest.
 
I am 33 years old, a suspicious thump in the night shouldn’t cause so much fear. Unfortunately, bravery has never been a trait of mine.
 
In the rational section of my brain, I know that the sound came from outside the house. A car door slamming in the street or a neighbor slamming their front door.
 
Tonight, I have no room for rational thoughts as I sit listening to Stephen King’s It audiobook.  I look to my wife and see that she is fast asleep.
 
It’s nothing, obviously. Everything is fine.
 
A couple of minutes pass with no mysterious noises. Relieved, I laugh at myself and how I am letting Mr. King get the best of me.
 
Then, as I am listening to Bill Denbrough and Richie Tozier escape the maniacal clown that has disguised itself as a werewolf, I can hear the bass of two voices talking downstairs in our living room.
 
I pause the audiobook and freeze, doing my best not to make a noise. It’s difficult to make out the voices over my heartbeat pounding in my ears.
 
Somebody is in my house.

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The Talk

They sat on a bench on the bike path overlooking the river. The late afternoon sun lazily making its descent to the horizon. The leaves rustling in the late fall breeze.

In days past they would have sat holding hands, or at least making some sort of physical contact. Lately, they didn’t mind the space. As a matter of fact, they felt more comfortable with a bit of separation.

They looked at each other at the same time and knew that they were both thinking the same depressing thought. They sighed.

She broke the silence first, as usual.

“How did we get here?”

“Seriously? We parked the car at the park, then followed the path to the bench” he said.

Another one of his ill-timed jokes that she used to find adorable, but now she found irritating.

“Sorry, I just don’t know how you want me to answer that.”

“I want you to be honest. I want you to tell me how you feel. Why do I always have to drag things out of you?” Continue reading

Ronald

She couldn’t tell if she was nauseous from the amount of blood that she was being forced to swallow or the massive blow to the back of the head that knocked her unconscious. The rag tied around her head is stretching the corner of her lips and all she can taste was the rusty, metallic warmth of her own blood.

She was working to piece together what had happened. How did she get here?

The garage door was open when she pulled up to her house but there was no sign of her husband’s car. The early fall dusk allowed her to see that the bedroom light was on through the second floor window of their rustic farmhouse that she had so carefully designed.

She could remember the day 8 years ago that they bought the house. Everything seemed so perfect. They had tied the knot two years earlier and they were still very much in their honeymoon phase. The world, it seemed, was their oyster. When did that change?

She assumed that she had just forgotten to shut the light off this morning when she left for work. I am usually so careful about those things, she thought. As she stepped out of her harbour grey Mercedes C250 a gust of chilled autumn wind blew soggy leaves across the drive.

Ronald should’ve been home by now.

His behavior had been so erratic recently, she couldn’t figure out what was going on with her once exuberant husband. He had seemed to be in the midst of a year-long funk. She missed him. She missed the man that she built this home with.

She opened the door to hear music blaring over the Bose sound system. She yelled for her husband but go no response. As she set her purse on the table in the entry way there was a jarring blow to the back of her head. Her eyes flashed white, then she saw the floor quickly approaching before everything went black.

Now, she sits bound and gagged in her dining room in compete silence with a lone candle flickering on the table in front of her.

What? Why? Who?

She heard footsteps approach from behind her on their squeaky, rustic hardwood floor.

She could feel her pulse start to race and the adrenaline flooding through her legs. The blood in her nose made it especially hard to breathe. Panic set in when her assailant grasped a fist full of her hair and pulled her head back, then ran the cold steel tip of his knife down her cheek.

She attempted a scream, but it came out sounding like a gurgled yell under water. Blood, snot, and tears dripped off her chin staining her shirt. She could feel his breath against her ear as though he was about to tell her a secret but he didn’t speak. He was just breathing at a quick, sharp maniacal pace. His hand shook as he ran the blade under her chin, across her throat.

Who would do this to me? Where is Ronald? Her head was pounding and her thoughts were swimming trying to make sense of the situation that she had now found herself in.

He finally let go of her hair and circled around the table in front of her in a blue one piece jump suit and a black ski mask. Both looked brand new.

He sat in the chair across from her, his eyes looked black as they pierced through the mask. She couldn’t hold his stare, she could see the evil that burst forth from them like spot lights.

They sat in silence for nearly fifteen minutes. Then the room was illuminated by headlights coming up the drive.

Ronald!

He stood and swiftly left the room.

She started to struggle, her wrists were already raw from whatever bound her hands together. She could feel blood dripping from her little fingers. She was making no headway, then the music started again. Patsy Cline started singing “Crazy…” She continued to struggle. One of her favorite songs and within the first 3 seconds it had become the most menacing song she had ever heard.

She heard the familiar creak of their front door opening, she craned her neck to see if it was Ronald coming through the front door but as she stretched, the legs of the chair started to wobble and she tipped backward.

Her head bounced off of the floor and again she was dazed. Shaking off the cobwebs she heard the thump of what could only be a body falling to the floor. She didn’t hear a struggle. She knew the worst had happened.

Her fears were confirmed when she saw him dragging Ronald across the floor with a black hood on his head. He had on his favorite suit. She felt bad that the first thing that she noticed was that the suit was fitting a bit tight.

It had been a taught year for Ronald, he lost his job and had a lot of trouble finding work. His lack of activity led to a bit of extra weight. It wasn’t a bad thing and actually she thought that he looked cute with a little extra weight which Ronald seemed to think was patronising when she said it. She truly missed her husband.

He propped Ronald up in the chair across from her. Next, he walked over and tipped her up right in her chair lifting her by her hair.

Now she looked at her husband with a black bag over his head that hung limply forward. Her fear rose to a new level seeing Ronald in danger. All the while Patsy Cline continued to sing on repeat.

He circled back to Ronald, grabbed his limp right arm and placed his hand carefully flat on the table. Then, she realized that the knife had now been replaced with a hammer. He raised it above his head and slammed it into the center of Ronald’s hand. His once limp head snapped backward in pain immediately as he let out a muffled scream.

It was as if she could feel his pain and she screamed out back to at least let Ronald know that she was there with him. Breathing became more difficult through her sobbing. She tried to scream, “why?” but the rag in her mouth made it impossible to speak.

He was back behind her, breathing in her ear now more shallow and fast paced. She could tell that he was enjoying this torture party.

The familiar chill of the blade back against her cheek again terrified her of what was next to come. He moved back behind Ronald. He grabbed Ronald by the chin tilted his head backward, exposing his throat and in one swift motion slit his neck severing his carotid artery sending blood spurting across the table covering her face.She writhed in horror.

He killed him, she thought, he killed my Ronald.

Her head slumped forward as she sobbed. She couldn’t bare to look up at her dead husband. In that instant she gave up. She wanted it to end, she was ready to die.

He walked back behind her, grabbed her by the hair and pulled her head back. She prepared for what was about to happen. She waited. But nothing happened, he held her head upward. She couldn’t help but open her eyes.

He had removed the hood from Ronald’s head and when she saw the face looking back at her shock overtook her body.

The lifeless face staring back at her was not her Ronald. It was Chris, the party planner she had met with earlier this afternoon organizing her surprise anniversary party for Ronald.

Where is Ro….

But, before she could even begin she heard the most terrifying noise she could imagine. The gurgling sound of her own throat being cut open as blood spilled down her chest. Then, everything went black.

It was over. Overwhelmed with a sense of satisfaction Ronald pulled the ski mask off of his face and admired his dining room covered in blood so dark that it was closer to black than red.

Serves both of them right,  he thought,  sneaking around behind my back. I hope they are happy together in hell.

Ronald had suspected that she was cheating on him for months and his suspicions were confirmed this afternoon when he followed her to this asshole’s house.

Ronald knew then and there that this would be their fate, but he didn’t know what effect it would have on him.

He felt alive, he felt better than he had in months. He cleaned his blade off on the back of his dead wife’s shirt

Initially, he had planned to join those two in hell, but as he walked toward the door he decided that he would pay their neighbors a visit.